I just got done working out at C.A.N.I boot camp at Milpitas High. It is an organization that started with friends trying to get in shape for Vegas. I'M GOING TO VEGAS in 3 weeks. SHIIIIIT. Well yeah, I feel really good right now. I guess you can say part of it is from the high that you get after working out. But also, I know that my life is starting to fall into place. Keyword is starting. That means I still have to guide it in the right direction and just do me.
A few days ago Corey, the recruiter from Aerotek called me back. It has been close to a month with no news from him. The last time I spoke with him he said that Cemex was interested in me coming in for a third interview. I never followed up. But, yeah so he called me out of the blue and in his words, "they are still highly interested in you." He set up the date and time. Today, he called me again checking in with me if I'm ready and everything. Going over the little details about everything. Interview at 3PM tomorrow at the Cemex plant in Santa Clara.Wish me luck!
This whole time, I thought Tonix Corporation was fucking with me. They took forever doing everything because they are a small company and understaffed right now. I finally heard news today that suggests I'm getting hired. I mean, they put me through a lot of interviews and whatnot already, and even with the whole "We would like to move forward with checking your references" email I still doubted myself. And I continued to doubt myself when they didn't reply with anything after. And after discovering that my emails have been going to the manager's spam box, Sunny still got no reply. (PULLL HAIRRRRR IN FRUSTRATION). But then I recontacted them today and they said, "I had very good chats with both of your Sheraton contacts yesterday. I
discussed everything with Mike, who is traveling and will be returning
today. He will be in touch shortly." Now I'm confident that I will get the job. I mean, shooooooot if I don't get it then I'll be darned.
Ideally, I would get job offers at about the same time so I have leverage and can haggle a little bit. Both these companies has reasons why I am attracted to them so we'll see how everything goes. I think the lesson to be learned here, and what I can take away from this whole jobless experience is to be confident. I mean, I'm hella confident when I go into interviews, and when I walk away from interviews. When I interviewed for Sheraton, I was the 1 person that got chosen from about 80. Of the four places I've interviewed for after I quit Sheraton, I got two of them (both unpaid so I quit), and look at the other two...I'm about to get both of them. I'm confident now. But I have to fill in the gap...that waiting period where I don't hear responses. If I get job offers from these two places, then damn....4/4. I can say I got job offers from 100% of places I interview for :p
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
I decided to stop with the whole WordPress thing since it ended up being a shit talking blog. But yeah, I guess here I am!!! Back again at Blogger. I think I like this blog because people follow me, BUT no one really uses it. Get it? Like, I like writing with the idea that people CAN be reading it I guess, but I also like the fact that no one really uses it anymore because I don't want everyone knowing my dirty secrets or whatever shit comes out of my mouth.
But yeah, I've been jobless for 4 months now on paper. 3 months technically because I was working under the table for a month at Sunny's aunt's sushi restaurant. http://www.yelp.com/biz/hayward-japan-grill-hayward. Yeah, this place has 3 stars. Sentiments aside, I think this place rightfully deserves 4 stars. Shiiiiiiet, especially since I started working here. I manned the place myself as the only waiter at the busiest of times. The place offers pretty good food for dirt cheap prices (comparative to other sushi joints).
My personal financial reserves are running pretty low though. 3 months. I guess that's what I managed to save up working close to 2 years at the Sheraton. I think the standard people suggest is that you try to save up an umbrella of 8 months. OH WELL. Maybe it's the fact that I didn't exactly cut back on going out, having fun, buying frivolous shit. I honestly can't say I regret it though. YOLO hahaha. I don't even like that term. Quitting the hotel is probably one of the best decisions I've made in 2012. Not a very good year so far, so I guess that has to be the best even though it left me jobless. It might have even saved my life. I lived a reckless lifestyle when I was working there with school, dog, gf, friends, work. It's not that the job functions are hard, or the complaints you constantly had to deal with. Rather, it's the stress from the lack of sleep I get working there. The 6:45AM shifts on Friday's, Saturday's, and Sunday's that would kill me when I decide to go out to celebrate my closest friend's birthdays. The stress knowing that people are fucking giving my managers bullshit excuses not to work on certain days, or calling in "sick" when I know for a fact they are fucking watching sports or whatever. The stress comes from managers buying that bullshit and how it directly affects me when my coworkers decide to skip a day due to "sickness." No one I know working at the front desk is happy there. I got pretty close to a lot of them and more than half of them would quit instantly if they got offered a $0.50 increase in wage elsewhere. No one is happy working the front desk. You, along with the sales team, do the most work. But sales doesn't have to deal with the bullshit the front desk does. But wait, we get paid a bleak $10 an hour while the people that do the same amount of work and deal with less crap gets salary. Ask me why the turnover rate is so high for the front desk. I dare you.
Moving forward. Looking for a career job is quite difficult when you lack relevant experience. But I finally (hopefully) have found mine. Tonix Corporation made me go through a phone interview, a 1.25 hours second interview, a third interview lasting 1.5 hours and they finally let me know asking for references. Does that mean that I got the job? Shooooot I hope. This company is something I'm definitely looking for. Startup...well kinda. It's family run and owned existing since the 1970's. But the point is, it is still in its growth stage. A relatively small company with a real family feel to it between all the employees (even the ones that aren't family). It makes it even more exciting knowing that it isn't wage but salary + commission + yearly bonus. I will be out of the dumps after I take care of my family. I'm not even expecting a lot for salary. IMHO, it's only my first job and I will work for next to nothing to get that much deserved experience.
As far as personal life. I'm still hardly talking to Henry. At this point, I can't tell if it's by choice or not. I don't want to blog about what happen because it's just going to bring back bad memories that I don't want to revisit. Que sera sera right (whatever happens happens). It makes me sad but at this point I don't have the balls to talk about the situation that happen whether it's my fault or his.
I'm not with Yannie. I think it's been close to two weeks now. Maybe one. I dunno, it feels kinda lonely but yknow, iKnow, and shKnows, that we won't work out. I'm glad she realize what pretty much drove us to the point we're at today. I'm glad she realized that all this fighting we're doing doesn't make us stronger and it was actually hurting us...me especially a lot. When we had our talks after our breakups, she pointed out that I'm far from a good boyfriend. I can't say I disagree. She longed for what I had with other girlfriends--the part where I will make them feel special, loved, etc. But she also didn't realize that for her, I did it in a different fashion. I did sweet acts, and praises, whatever for my other girlfriends but at the same time, I was flirting with other girls. I deemed that I was a good boyfriend with Yannie because I wasn't flirting and talking to other girls. Girls were pretty much non-existent in this relationship with her. But I guess she wanted more. The thing is, I guess I really don't have that capacity. Not yet at least. We learn and we grow and that's what I continually try to do. C.A.N.I (Continual and never-ending improvement). BETTER than YOLO hahaha. I have to understand that I can only do so much with what I had to work with. If I can't take care and love myself, how am I going to do the same for my girlfriend. I dunno. I don't want to talk about it. I'm not on the prowl like I use to be. I never was before either. But whats different now is that the girls I am talking to are just old friends and not like potential people I wanna hook up with. Linh, Tharina, Krisha, etc. All with boyfriends, and all I once considered really close friends of mine. Time to mend these relationships.
And it's time to watch AWAKE.
But yeah, I've been jobless for 4 months now on paper. 3 months technically because I was working under the table for a month at Sunny's aunt's sushi restaurant. http://www.yelp.com/biz/hayward-japan-grill-hayward. Yeah, this place has 3 stars. Sentiments aside, I think this place rightfully deserves 4 stars. Shiiiiiiet, especially since I started working here. I manned the place myself as the only waiter at the busiest of times. The place offers pretty good food for dirt cheap prices (comparative to other sushi joints).
My personal financial reserves are running pretty low though. 3 months. I guess that's what I managed to save up working close to 2 years at the Sheraton. I think the standard people suggest is that you try to save up an umbrella of 8 months. OH WELL. Maybe it's the fact that I didn't exactly cut back on going out, having fun, buying frivolous shit. I honestly can't say I regret it though. YOLO hahaha. I don't even like that term. Quitting the hotel is probably one of the best decisions I've made in 2012. Not a very good year so far, so I guess that has to be the best even though it left me jobless. It might have even saved my life. I lived a reckless lifestyle when I was working there with school, dog, gf, friends, work. It's not that the job functions are hard, or the complaints you constantly had to deal with. Rather, it's the stress from the lack of sleep I get working there. The 6:45AM shifts on Friday's, Saturday's, and Sunday's that would kill me when I decide to go out to celebrate my closest friend's birthdays. The stress knowing that people are fucking giving my managers bullshit excuses not to work on certain days, or calling in "sick" when I know for a fact they are fucking watching sports or whatever. The stress comes from managers buying that bullshit and how it directly affects me when my coworkers decide to skip a day due to "sickness." No one I know working at the front desk is happy there. I got pretty close to a lot of them and more than half of them would quit instantly if they got offered a $0.50 increase in wage elsewhere. No one is happy working the front desk. You, along with the sales team, do the most work. But sales doesn't have to deal with the bullshit the front desk does. But wait, we get paid a bleak $10 an hour while the people that do the same amount of work and deal with less crap gets salary. Ask me why the turnover rate is so high for the front desk. I dare you.
Moving forward. Looking for a career job is quite difficult when you lack relevant experience. But I finally (hopefully) have found mine. Tonix Corporation made me go through a phone interview, a 1.25 hours second interview, a third interview lasting 1.5 hours and they finally let me know asking for references. Does that mean that I got the job? Shooooot I hope. This company is something I'm definitely looking for. Startup...well kinda. It's family run and owned existing since the 1970's. But the point is, it is still in its growth stage. A relatively small company with a real family feel to it between all the employees (even the ones that aren't family). It makes it even more exciting knowing that it isn't wage but salary + commission + yearly bonus. I will be out of the dumps after I take care of my family. I'm not even expecting a lot for salary. IMHO, it's only my first job and I will work for next to nothing to get that much deserved experience.
As far as personal life. I'm still hardly talking to Henry. At this point, I can't tell if it's by choice or not. I don't want to blog about what happen because it's just going to bring back bad memories that I don't want to revisit. Que sera sera right (whatever happens happens). It makes me sad but at this point I don't have the balls to talk about the situation that happen whether it's my fault or his.
I'm not with Yannie. I think it's been close to two weeks now. Maybe one. I dunno, it feels kinda lonely but yknow, iKnow, and shKnows, that we won't work out. I'm glad she realize what pretty much drove us to the point we're at today. I'm glad she realized that all this fighting we're doing doesn't make us stronger and it was actually hurting us...me especially a lot. When we had our talks after our breakups, she pointed out that I'm far from a good boyfriend. I can't say I disagree. She longed for what I had with other girlfriends--the part where I will make them feel special, loved, etc. But she also didn't realize that for her, I did it in a different fashion. I did sweet acts, and praises, whatever for my other girlfriends but at the same time, I was flirting with other girls. I deemed that I was a good boyfriend with Yannie because I wasn't flirting and talking to other girls. Girls were pretty much non-existent in this relationship with her. But I guess she wanted more. The thing is, I guess I really don't have that capacity. Not yet at least. We learn and we grow and that's what I continually try to do. C.A.N.I (Continual and never-ending improvement). BETTER than YOLO hahaha. I have to understand that I can only do so much with what I had to work with. If I can't take care and love myself, how am I going to do the same for my girlfriend. I dunno. I don't want to talk about it. I'm not on the prowl like I use to be. I never was before either. But whats different now is that the girls I am talking to are just old friends and not like potential people I wanna hook up with. Linh, Tharina, Krisha, etc. All with boyfriends, and all I once considered really close friends of mine. Time to mend these relationships.
And it's time to watch AWAKE.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
Random Memories That Make Me Smile
I was sleeping and then felt something touch crotch area. Looking up, I saw John smiling holding a plate of food and smiling. I looked at my crotch area and saw another plate for me. Loaded on the plate was an omelet, and a small side of waffles topped with reduced strawberries and whip cream.
About a year ago, I was living in a house with Andrew, Howard, and John. I remember when Tiffany (Howard's GF) brought over her chunky friend from Vegas. We were all in the garage at that moment. The two girls left and Howard said something to me and Andrew along the lines of "That fat bitch...etc etc." Howard left and came back minutes later saying how Tiffany heard him and that he's in trouble. By this time Andrew and I were hella drunk and as we played the couple in beer pong, we kept laughing immaturely knowing that they're mad at each other. Sorry I added fuel to the fire but it was too funny.
In elementary school, I remember Oai and I LOVED to play at the park. We would go on the swings every single day after school and just play. One specific thing I remember doing each day we were there was go on the swings and jump off of them doing various tricks and flips. This includes (but not limited to): doing backflips, 180's, 360's, 540's, benihanas, and suck-it's (derived from X-Pac of WWF. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GGwOxhkoP4). We were so good, or so we thought, that we wanted to be authors of an illustration "how-to" book.
Oai, Sunny, Chung, and I created this group when we were younger. We called it the "Ultimate 4." This group was created so we can make money and be of good citizens to our society. Our target market were mainly homeowners who needed chores or errands done so they can actually enjoy their lives. Yes, the Ultimate 4 could do anything from mowing lawns to babysitting. I think the only money we made was from having a lame garage sale that got us 30 dollars.
Our new roommates showed me and Henry a picture on facebook for a group of people. At first they just showed the small icon and then they asked us who was the cutest one. We pointed at some girl and then asked us if we thought she was pretty and asked us if we would date her. We both agreed and said yes. When they clicked on the icon to the big picture it was Pam, our other roommate -___-"
About a year ago, I was living in a house with Andrew, Howard, and John. I remember when Tiffany (Howard's GF) brought over her chunky friend from Vegas. We were all in the garage at that moment. The two girls left and Howard said something to me and Andrew along the lines of "That fat bitch...etc etc." Howard left and came back minutes later saying how Tiffany heard him and that he's in trouble. By this time Andrew and I were hella drunk and as we played the couple in beer pong, we kept laughing immaturely knowing that they're mad at each other. Sorry I added fuel to the fire but it was too funny.
In elementary school, I remember Oai and I LOVED to play at the park. We would go on the swings every single day after school and just play. One specific thing I remember doing each day we were there was go on the swings and jump off of them doing various tricks and flips. This includes (but not limited to): doing backflips, 180's, 360's, 540's, benihanas, and suck-it's (derived from X-Pac of WWF. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GGwOxhkoP4). We were so good, or so we thought, that we wanted to be authors of an illustration "how-to" book.
Oai, Sunny, Chung, and I created this group when we were younger. We called it the "Ultimate 4." This group was created so we can make money and be of good citizens to our society. Our target market were mainly homeowners who needed chores or errands done so they can actually enjoy their lives. Yes, the Ultimate 4 could do anything from mowing lawns to babysitting. I think the only money we made was from having a lame garage sale that got us 30 dollars.
Our new roommates showed me and Henry a picture on facebook for a group of people. At first they just showed the small icon and then they asked us who was the cutest one. We pointed at some girl and then asked us if we thought she was pretty and asked us if we would date her. We both agreed and said yes. When they clicked on the icon to the big picture it was Pam, our other roommate -___-"
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Notes
Notes to a few like I usually do even though most of them don't read it:
Henry, Sunny, Pam, future roommate (probably AJW204: I'm so glad I moved in. During this period of my life and I guess how I am currently feeling (negative), I would choose moving in with you guys as my bright spot. I'm happy I'm with 3 of my best friends and a girl who I can see being really close with. Drama probably will happen and we may have our moments of disagreements, but I'm sure we'll be fine. Cheers to a new beginning in a lot of our lives.
Eileen: Since you wrote something pretty sweet about me I figure I should just let you know how I feel and something I remember about you. I remember during pledging that you were hecka crying when we did the candle thing. And I remember what you said, was the first time I felt special in a long time. I don't really know if you meant what you said about the whole class, but I felt special and I appreciate you telling me that.
PGF: Hi. Please don't forget to treat me out to gelato for our 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, and 6th. Don't forget about our pinkie promise that we made the other day when we last hung out. I take promises pretty seriously and I expect you to keep yours! Lastly and MOST IMPORTANTLY, don't fade away because I already see it happening :( P.S. I need to go back to Ross to get another matching pebbly rug for the sink.
B3000 and My Chinese Cousin: I honestly miss you guys. I know I say it a lot, and yeah, maybe I never call or text you, but I do think of both of you quite frequently. I wish we were closer but wishing never does anything does it? I'm sorry I kinda lost touch with you guys but I hope you know that WHEN WE DO EVENTUALLY hang out again, it'll be pretty awesome and we can exchange those stories like we always do. I guess that's what makes our relationship special, that we can share stories with people I hardly see but I feel comfortable to do it and feel...COOL. Or at least that's how I see it.
Henry, Sunny, Pam, future roommate (probably AJW204: I'm so glad I moved in. During this period of my life and I guess how I am currently feeling (negative), I would choose moving in with you guys as my bright spot. I'm happy I'm with 3 of my best friends and a girl who I can see being really close with. Drama probably will happen and we may have our moments of disagreements, but I'm sure we'll be fine. Cheers to a new beginning in a lot of our lives.
Eileen: Since you wrote something pretty sweet about me I figure I should just let you know how I feel and something I remember about you. I remember during pledging that you were hecka crying when we did the candle thing. And I remember what you said, was the first time I felt special in a long time. I don't really know if you meant what you said about the whole class, but I felt special and I appreciate you telling me that.
PGF: Hi. Please don't forget to treat me out to gelato for our 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, and 6th. Don't forget about our pinkie promise that we made the other day when we last hung out. I take promises pretty seriously and I expect you to keep yours! Lastly and MOST IMPORTANTLY, don't fade away because I already see it happening :( P.S. I need to go back to Ross to get another matching pebbly rug for the sink.
B3000 and My Chinese Cousin: I honestly miss you guys. I know I say it a lot, and yeah, maybe I never call or text you, but I do think of both of you quite frequently. I wish we were closer but wishing never does anything does it? I'm sorry I kinda lost touch with you guys but I hope you know that WHEN WE DO EVENTUALLY hang out again, it'll be pretty awesome and we can exchange those stories like we always do. I guess that's what makes our relationship special, that we can share stories with people I hardly see but I feel comfortable to do it and feel...COOL. Or at least that's how I see it.
I'm so tired right now from "studying." I guess that's code for facebook, aim, youtube, and texting on my phone. I know it's been a minute or two since I've actually wrote things down on here and not delete it, but I'm going to try my best to write something I would like to read back on.
So this week wasn't the best for me...or at least hasn't been the best. Just a lot of unfortunate events and discoveries that happened in addition to midterms before spring break 2011. I would normally look forward to the break to finally relieve myself of the stress and whatnot, but I feel like there's just hella shit goin' through my head that I KNOWWWWW I shouldn't be worrying about.
5-6 years in multiple relationships. now i'm single. having the time of my life. not ready for a relationship. feelin' lonely sometimes. BUT I can't even find that interest for a girl. I don't want a girlfriend, but I want someone to WOW me and excite me and make me feel like I'm in love. BUT not have me be their boyfriend.
Complicated, I know. But there's nothing I can/will do about it.
So this week wasn't the best for me...or at least hasn't been the best. Just a lot of unfortunate events and discoveries that happened in addition to midterms before spring break 2011. I would normally look forward to the break to finally relieve myself of the stress and whatnot, but I feel like there's just hella shit goin' through my head that I KNOWWWWW I shouldn't be worrying about.
5-6 years in multiple relationships. now i'm single. having the time of my life. not ready for a relationship. feelin' lonely sometimes. BUT I can't even find that interest for a girl. I don't want a girlfriend, but I want someone to WOW me and excite me and make me feel like I'm in love. BUT not have me be their boyfriend.
Complicated, I know. But there's nothing I can/will do about it.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
NYE 2010/NY2011
I have never done anything worthy of mentioning for New Years Eve...that is, until this year. I had requested it off from work, sacrificing my Christmas eve, Christmas day, and the day after Christmas. The past years were rather uneventful because of a whole array of reasons ranging from having stupid gfs, being under aged, or simply being broke. However, this year I am single, 22 years old, and have a steady flow of income that keeps my wallet a healthy weight - not obese but certainly not anorexic.
The New Years Eve couldn't have come at any better time. Viet and I pack our belongings, a mere backpack for me, and met up with his friends from Sacramento. I'm not gonna lie, I was pretty nervous riding the elevator and knocking on the hotel door waiting to see the faces of the two on the other side. Viet had already mentioned that he showed interest in one of the girls so the other girl and I would naturally gravitate towards each other. Since this is the first time I'm meeting her, it'd be like a blind date.
As awkward as it could have been, alcohol definitely makes things a lot easier. So club ROE itself was alright. Note to self, open bar is too amazing to ever pass up (assuming I have the money). The first thing Viet and I did when we got into the club was head over to the bar, slam our fists and said "2 shots of patron, and two long vodka redbulls!" The night was dwindling away as the four of us got ridiculously drunk to the point where one of the girls fell causing an innocent bystander to fall as well. The countdown was an actual disappointment but the copious amounts of champagne that I drank made up for it.
After about an hour of the two girls throwing up, we got a ride back to the quaint city of Emeryville with our hotel humbly situated next to the bay bridge.
That night we slept well. The next morning, we laid in bed until 5 until we finally decided to go eat the 3 in 1 breakfast/lunch/dinner at Sunny's sushi restaurant. And again after, back to the hotel to lay in our 2 queen beds having deep conversations and playing "I Have Never." Eventually, we got sleepy and called it a night. We were woke up once more the next day until it was time for us to check out. I think this is the most I've ever laid down and done nothing all day. Very unproductive day to say the least, but it was a nice change of pace in my life. Thank you friends for giving me the best new years I've ever had so far.
The New Years Eve couldn't have come at any better time. Viet and I pack our belongings, a mere backpack for me, and met up with his friends from Sacramento. I'm not gonna lie, I was pretty nervous riding the elevator and knocking on the hotel door waiting to see the faces of the two on the other side. Viet had already mentioned that he showed interest in one of the girls so the other girl and I would naturally gravitate towards each other. Since this is the first time I'm meeting her, it'd be like a blind date.
As awkward as it could have been, alcohol definitely makes things a lot easier. So club ROE itself was alright. Note to self, open bar is too amazing to ever pass up (assuming I have the money). The first thing Viet and I did when we got into the club was head over to the bar, slam our fists and said "2 shots of patron, and two long vodka redbulls!" The night was dwindling away as the four of us got ridiculously drunk to the point where one of the girls fell causing an innocent bystander to fall as well. The countdown was an actual disappointment but the copious amounts of champagne that I drank made up for it.
After about an hour of the two girls throwing up, we got a ride back to the quaint city of Emeryville with our hotel humbly situated next to the bay bridge.
That night we slept well. The next morning, we laid in bed until 5 until we finally decided to go eat the 3 in 1 breakfast/lunch/dinner at Sunny's sushi restaurant. And again after, back to the hotel to lay in our 2 queen beds having deep conversations and playing "I Have Never." Eventually, we got sleepy and called it a night. We were woke up once more the next day until it was time for us to check out. I think this is the most I've ever laid down and done nothing all day. Very unproductive day to say the least, but it was a nice change of pace in my life. Thank you friends for giving me the best new years I've ever had so far.
And I suppose I'll do one of those generic reflections on the previous year. 2010... It rivals 2008 for the title of the most depressing point in my life. Breaking hearts and getting your heart broken are two different extremes that I've experienced. As contradicting as it sounds, 2010 was one of the best years of my life. I had one of my lowest points of my life, but asides from that, I have learned so much more and met so many great people the second half of the year. It has been trickling into the beginning of the new year. Cheers to 2011 for being an even better year.
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