K1mberisbester

Man, within the last half month, I personally know 6 couples including myself who went from taken to single with another couple brewing in the process. I guess just a bad month?

For those of you that don't know or care, Kim and I aren't together anymore. Long story short, we have been pretty shaky the last 2 weeks and one thing I said (no harm intended) was basically the fatal stab. She broke up with me but it's somewhat mutual I guess. Or... well, if I had the option I would try to work things out because that's just me and I honestly still love her a lot more than I showed her. I've been lucky to be surrounded by friends new and old who keep me occupied to dull the pain a lot.

It's those times where I'm laying in bed trying to sleep or when I first wake up where I have more time than I'd like thinking. Just thinking. A lot of what-if's and what could have been. We talked it over and decided that it's best we don't talk right now, but we made too much of an impact on each others' life to never speak again. And I do plan on talking to her in the future, perhaps near future. I don't really know yet. I will just know that it's gonna hurt when she gets a boyfriend. Jealousy trumps optimism unless I find an equivalent. But as of right now, I'm being pretty optimistic about being single and whatnot. I mean, it's really been 6 years since I've been single. Right now it's gonna be ME time.

If you ever read this, or if you happen to stumble across this post, just know that I meant everything I text you that one night. I truly am sorry for what I said the other night. It was meant to be harmless with good intentions. I hope that you can eventually forgive me for what I said. You mean and meant a lot to me. I consider you my first true love. Thanks for teaching me new things everyday. I'll be ready to talk when you want to. Anytime. And I'll be there for you. Always. I know I'll miss you even if I'm surrounded by friends and yes, even if it's girls. I know you're probably wondering about that. I wish that one day, we can be good friends because we never got a chance to be and I hope you find what you're looking for. For the record, I do think that you're beautiful. I still love you so don't forget me, because I will never forget you...