Why I Flirt.

I hate being a jealous bitch. It reminds me of Linda and Linda is someone I don't ever ever want to be for obvious reasons.

But then again, can you really blame me? Being in a long distance relationship with someone who moved to Stockton. Shit gets to you.

Knowing that other people get to see her more than you.
Knowing that most, if not all the people she hangs out with are guys.
Knowing that she hangs out with some of them 5 or 6 days a week.
Knowing that she wanted to bring one of them to my friends trip to SoCal.
Knowing that they give each other nicknames like Jerk Erick, Jerbear, and Jerk Kim.
Knowing that she straight up lied to me once without hesitation.
Knowing that guys always see her in spandex.
NOT knowing who they are and how they're like because we've never met.

See it was easy when I have an equivalent. When you had Robert to be your friend. See it was easy. See it was easy because I had Lauren.

See now, I don't have an equivalent. That's what makes it hard. Yeah, I party a lot. But I don't party everyday. I may be intoxicated, but I don't cheat nor do I do too much. I don't have one specific person I go to when you're too busy. This is probably why I flirt so much.

Why do I stay? It's all about trust. In the end, I do trust you. I still get jealous though. But you REALLY can't blame me.

Now I'm gonna go to a BBQ.