Notes

Notes to a few like I usually do even though most of them don't read it:

Henry, Sunny, Pam, future roommate (probably AJW204: I'm so glad I moved in. During this period of my life and I guess how I am currently feeling (negative), I would choose moving in with you guys as my bright spot. I'm happy I'm with 3 of my best friends and a girl who I can see being really close with. Drama probably will happen and we may have our moments of disagreements, but I'm sure we'll be fine. Cheers to a new beginning in a lot of our lives.

Eileen: Since you wrote something pretty sweet about me I figure I should just let you know how I feel and something I remember about you. I remember during pledging that you were hecka crying when we did the candle thing. And I remember what you said, was the first time I felt special in a long time. I don't really know if you meant what you said about the whole class, but I felt special and I appreciate you telling me that.

PGF: Hi. Please don't forget to treat me out to gelato for our 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, and 6th. Don't forget about our pinkie promise that we made the other day when we last hung out. I take promises pretty seriously and I expect you to keep yours! Lastly and MOST IMPORTANTLY, don't fade away because I already see it happening :( P.S. I need to go back to Ross to get another matching pebbly rug for the sink.

B3000 and My Chinese Cousin: I honestly miss you guys. I know I say it a lot, and yeah, maybe I never call or text you, but I do think of both of you quite frequently. I wish we were closer but wishing never does anything does it? I'm sorry I kinda lost touch with you guys but I hope you know that WHEN WE DO EVENTUALLY hang out again, it'll be pretty awesome and we can exchange those stories like we always do. I guess that's what makes our relationship special, that we can share stories with people I hardly see but I feel comfortable to do it and feel...COOL. Or at least that's how I see it.

I'm so tired right now from "studying." I guess that's code for facebook, aim, youtube, and texting on my phone. I know it's been a minute or two since I've actually wrote things down on here and not delete it, but I'm going to try my best to write something I would like to read back on.

So this week wasn't the best for me...or at least hasn't been the best. Just a lot of unfortunate events and discoveries that happened in addition to midterms before spring break 2011. I would normally look forward to the break to finally relieve myself of the stress and whatnot, but I feel like there's just hella shit goin' through my head that I KNOWWWWW I shouldn't be worrying about.

5-6 years in multiple relationships. now i'm single. having the time of my life. not ready for a relationship. feelin' lonely sometimes. BUT I can't even find that interest for a girl. I don't want a girlfriend, but I want someone to WOW me and excite me and make me feel like I'm in love. BUT not have me be their boyfriend.

Complicated, I know. But there's nothing I can/will do about it.