So I'm sitting here at a quarter past 3 (am, that is) just sipping Blue Moon, Winter Abbey Ale and thinking about a few things that has been running through my head lately.
I really, really hate seeing girls cry. It bothers me when one of my friends are crying and every time you hang out with them, they don't have that usual smile on their face. It hurts me to see them go through problems in their life that I do not have control over. What's worse is if they're cute :(
It's weird how some relationships turn out. Take a look at me and my relationship with Kim K. We don't speak to each other and I am 99% over her. I browse through my private blog entries I wrote about her and I can hardly believe the sentences that came out of my mouth. I told my friend that was going through some problems with her relationship, and it made me realize that a lot of girls are stuck with a guy who is perfect for them in every way except one. The thing that he isn't good at is actually the one of the most important thing a guy should be good at in a relationship. No one is perfect but choose a guy/girl who's bad trait is something you don't care as much about.
The past few days have been cold, but this morning is probably the coldest its been for a while. It kinda reminds me of how cold Japan is.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
Day 3: Eight ways to win my heart
1. If you have a really nice smile, you automatically attract me more than those that don't. I'm talking about smiles that are/look truly genuine. Those kinds of smiles let me know so much about you. That's the reason why I'm in love with Rachel McAdams after watching Wedding Crashers and Mila Kunis after watching Forgetting Sarah Marshall.
2. If you don't mind getting a little dirty. I like girly girls, but something about a girl who isn't TOO afraid of picking up a random bug or a girl who wants to help change a spare tire when it blows out instead of sitting in the car makes me like them. I guess because I stereotype girls in a way that when I find one that breaks the stereotype, I find them unique.
3. Food is key to any man's heart. Randomly show up at my doorstep with food and no matter how much homework/chores I have to do at home, I will sit and eat with you. Share food with me. Ask me if I wanna eat. Invite me over for dinner. Randomly know that I'm starving and save your Maggiano's leftover for me. Cook me food even if you can't cook, and I'll still eat it.
4. I've always liked when girls have little siblings, cousins, nieces, and nephews to take care of. Even if you might not necessarily like kids, showing me that you can take care of one makes me feel like...damn, you're gonna be my baby's mama.
5. Please be active. Or at least healthy. I don't need a girlfriend that is skinny or has that model body. If you are healthy/active, you're in good enough shape for me. I just don't like hearing when girls complain about how fat they are (even if they're not), yet you see them binging on junk food.
6. Don't talk too much shit for no reason. Guys talk shit. Girls talk shit/gossip. I talk shit. But there's a difference between talking shit when there is and isn't a valid reason to. When a stranger walks by you and he/she isn't the best looking person, don't tell me that. Be a nice person and keep bad thoughts to yourself.
7. I am an optimistic person. I try to stay positive no matter what. It's a nice change of pace finding someone like me in that sense.
8. If you are independent, you tell me that you can handle yourself and you have the ability to handle me. I guess, it tells me that you can take care of someone because you are already taking care of yourself well. Shit, this is hard to explain. Let me put this in a question format...How do you love someone else if you can't love yourself?
2. If you don't mind getting a little dirty. I like girly girls, but something about a girl who isn't TOO afraid of picking up a random bug or a girl who wants to help change a spare tire when it blows out instead of sitting in the car makes me like them. I guess because I stereotype girls in a way that when I find one that breaks the stereotype, I find them unique.
3. Food is key to any man's heart. Randomly show up at my doorstep with food and no matter how much homework/chores I have to do at home, I will sit and eat with you. Share food with me. Ask me if I wanna eat. Invite me over for dinner. Randomly know that I'm starving and save your Maggiano's leftover for me. Cook me food even if you can't cook, and I'll still eat it.
4. I've always liked when girls have little siblings, cousins, nieces, and nephews to take care of. Even if you might not necessarily like kids, showing me that you can take care of one makes me feel like...damn, you're gonna be my baby's mama.
5. Please be active. Or at least healthy. I don't need a girlfriend that is skinny or has that model body. If you are healthy/active, you're in good enough shape for me. I just don't like hearing when girls complain about how fat they are (even if they're not), yet you see them binging on junk food.
6. Don't talk too much shit for no reason. Guys talk shit. Girls talk shit/gossip. I talk shit. But there's a difference between talking shit when there is and isn't a valid reason to. When a stranger walks by you and he/she isn't the best looking person, don't tell me that. Be a nice person and keep bad thoughts to yourself.
7. I am an optimistic person. I try to stay positive no matter what. It's a nice change of pace finding someone like me in that sense.
8. If you are independent, you tell me that you can handle yourself and you have the ability to handle me. I guess, it tells me that you can take care of someone because you are already taking care of yourself well. Shit, this is hard to explain. Let me put this in a question format...How do you love someone else if you can't love yourself?
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Day 2: Nine things about yourself
1. I am currently a pledge for AKPsi. At times, I don't know if all this is worth it.
2. One of my biggest fear is rejection. If you haven't noticed, that's why I don't like dancing up on random girls at the club.
3. When I'm alone at home, I never feel happy.
4. When I lived in SF, I would sometimes walk around in my room completely naked with the windows wide open wondering if anyone sees me.
5. Even though I'm glad I don't have a girlfriend, I feel REALLY REALLY lonely at times.
6. I think the three best things the Vietnamese offer to this world is women, pho, and soda lemonade.
7. Cheating on significant others can be justified. I've done it twice. One time is justified. I don't believe in "once a cheater always a cheater."
8. I've learned a lot about myself in 2010. More so than the last 10 years of my life.
9. I never see myself as a leader, but I see myself growing and developing into one.
2. One of my biggest fear is rejection. If you haven't noticed, that's why I don't like dancing up on random girls at the club.
3. When I'm alone at home, I never feel happy.
4. When I lived in SF, I would sometimes walk around in my room completely naked with the windows wide open wondering if anyone sees me.
5. Even though I'm glad I don't have a girlfriend, I feel REALLY REALLY lonely at times.
6. I think the three best things the Vietnamese offer to this world is women, pho, and soda lemonade.
7. Cheating on significant others can be justified. I've done it twice. One time is justified. I don't believe in "once a cheater always a cheater."
8. I've learned a lot about myself in 2010. More so than the last 10 years of my life.
9. I never see myself as a leader, but I see myself growing and developing into one.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
1. I miss you and I feel our relationship shifting into a bad direction. However, I'm always here if you need me even if I'm busy as hell.
2. You're growing up to be such a good doggy :) Looks like Daddy raised you well.
3. I have this feeling for you that I don't often get. And honestly I'm scared of what will become of us because of the way I'm feeling. I hope you stay in my life.
4. Fuck you, you snobby bitch. Once this is done and over with, I will not have to take any of this bullshit. I'll shove my fist down your throat if you say one more thing.
5. I've heard a lot about you and I saw you for the first time the other day. You were sitting right next to me interviewing someone. And you are just as pretty as they say you are.
6. You made my day when you IM'd me at 4 in the morning asking if I was awake. Then when you figured I was sleeping, you told me you just wanted to say hi. Thanks.
7. I like how we are right now. Because you belong right there in my life. The list of people who I care about, but want nothing to do with. Over our friendship my respect for you has just gone down.
8. I hope you remember to pay me back because I won't forget. Get your priorities straight!
9. You got this! I know you can do it. I'm glad you went to me for advice.
10. Goodnight World.
2. You're growing up to be such a good doggy :) Looks like Daddy raised you well.
3. I have this feeling for you that I don't often get. And honestly I'm scared of what will become of us because of the way I'm feeling. I hope you stay in my life.
4. Fuck you, you snobby bitch. Once this is done and over with, I will not have to take any of this bullshit. I'll shove my fist down your throat if you say one more thing.
5. I've heard a lot about you and I saw you for the first time the other day. You were sitting right next to me interviewing someone. And you are just as pretty as they say you are.
6. You made my day when you IM'd me at 4 in the morning asking if I was awake. Then when you figured I was sleeping, you told me you just wanted to say hi. Thanks.
7. I like how we are right now. Because you belong right there in my life. The list of people who I care about, but want nothing to do with. Over our friendship my respect for you has just gone down.
8. I hope you remember to pay me back because I won't forget. Get your priorities straight!
9. You got this! I know you can do it. I'm glad you went to me for advice.
10. Goodnight World.
I feel like I'm copying Lisa a lot, but I'm gonna do there day to day survey crap. Thanks...
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Now Accepting Membership
It's been a while since I've used photoshop, but I would like to introduce you guys to my new triad group.
Name: Sour Mustache Lamb
Founders: S. Suen, Y. Su, S. Duong
Organized: N/A
Incorporated: N/A
Mascot name: Dai Goh
Logo:
Name: Sour Mustache Lamb
Founders: S. Suen, Y. Su, S. Duong
Organized: N/A
Incorporated: N/A
Mascot name: Dai Goh
Logo:
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Concussion
I have a minor concussion. I wish someone would have recorded that match.
Single leg takedown (2-0). He escapes (2-1). Bloodtime (I have a bloody nose). He shoots for double. Sprawl. Headlock when he comes up. Straight to back (7-1). Can't pin him. He eventually rolls and catches me on my back for a second (7-3). I escape (8-3). End of first round. Second round. He differs. Chose neutral. Take down (10-3). He espcapes (10-4). End of second round. Third round. He chooses down. I wanted optional start. Coach told me to keep him down for 30 more seconds to get riding time. I did. I slip and he reverses (10-6). I escape (11-6). He is frantic. Offense increases. He shoots. I change level and hit right above right my right eyebrow to top of his head. They call injury time for him, but I was still laying on the ground in pain. Gash/abrasion to my head. Blood on my hands. I stood up walking to the table. Wobble wobble. I felt dizzy. Eyes heavy. Get cleaned up. Continue to wrestle. He shoots. Almost got a takedown. I seatbelt and step over. He ends up on his back with me on top with a half nelson. I scream out "that's a pin! that's a pin!" to the referee. He slams the mat.
Single leg takedown (2-0). He escapes (2-1). Bloodtime (I have a bloody nose). He shoots for double. Sprawl. Headlock when he comes up. Straight to back (7-1). Can't pin him. He eventually rolls and catches me on my back for a second (7-3). I escape (8-3). End of first round. Second round. He differs. Chose neutral. Take down (10-3). He espcapes (10-4). End of second round. Third round. He chooses down. I wanted optional start. Coach told me to keep him down for 30 more seconds to get riding time. I did. I slip and he reverses (10-6). I escape (11-6). He is frantic. Offense increases. He shoots. I change level and hit right above right my right eyebrow to top of his head. They call injury time for him, but I was still laying on the ground in pain. Gash/abrasion to my head. Blood on my hands. I stood up walking to the table. Wobble wobble. I felt dizzy. Eyes heavy. Get cleaned up. Continue to wrestle. He shoots. Almost got a takedown. I seatbelt and step over. He ends up on his back with me on top with a half nelson. I scream out "that's a pin! that's a pin!" to the referee. He slams the mat.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
Tentative
This is just a little agenda for me to remember all the many things I have to do this week...
Monday
Monday
- Class 10:30-11:45AM
- Meet up Sally for new agenda 12PM
- Physical Therapy 2PM
- Work 5-9/10PM
- Pledge Class meeting right after work
- Find time in between to condition
- Find time in between to set up network meetings for the week
- Find time in between to do HW (Wednesday)
- Find time in between to study for test (Tuesday)
- Exam in class 12-1:15PM
- Big/Lil event in Pacifica room 4-6PM
- Meet with fundraising committee by BBC Garden Court 6:30PM
- Wrestling practice/check weight 8PM
- AlphaKappyPsi meeting BBC 326. Quiz on Greek alphabet 9PM
- Find time in between to condition
- Find time in between to set up network meetings for the week
- Find time in between to do homework (Wednesday)
- Find time in between to study for test (Thursday)
- HW due in class 10:30-11:45AM
- Skyline Duals 5PM
- Find time in before duals to condition/cut weight
- Find time in between to set up network meetings for the week
- Find time in between to study for test (Tuesday)
- Class 12-1:15PM
- Midterm in class 3-5:45PM
- Midterm in class 6-8:45PM
Sunday, September 19, 2010
I, CH, NL, DS, LK,, NA, WA, HL
Last week, I found my friends blog and then I proceeded to tell her how emo her blog seems. She said to me that mine "is kinda emo too.." and for some unexplainable reason, something clicked. I know I've been going through rough times, but I'm a lot better now. But why must I continue to sound so sad?
There are a few blogs I follow and a few people that verbally tell me their problems dealing with the opposite sex. And I get sad when I read it or hear it because I know to a certain degree how you feel, and I don't want you to feel that way. Each one of you possess a different twist to the drama like alternate endings in a movie. And all I want to tell you guys is that it's all going to get better. Someday, hopefully sooner, I'm going to read your happy blogs and listen to you telling me happy stories.
There are a few blogs I follow and a few people that verbally tell me their problems dealing with the opposite sex. And I get sad when I read it or hear it because I know to a certain degree how you feel, and I don't want you to feel that way. Each one of you possess a different twist to the drama like alternate endings in a movie. And all I want to tell you guys is that it's all going to get better. Someday, hopefully sooner, I'm going to read your happy blogs and listen to you telling me happy stories.
Monday, September 13, 2010
San Sebastian
Things are really different in my life. All I seem to have time for now are the most important people in my life. I'm doing more this semester than I have in any other two semesters combined.
School: Upper division business classes and core marketing classes...
Work: Still working at the Sheraton as usual. Luckily, my manager is understanding about my other priorities so she is going to be more lenient on the amount of hours I work and the days I can't work.
Wrestling: I wasn't so sure at first, but I have decided I want to continue with wrestling. I want to stay athletic, not just going to the gym and being fit. There is a difference. I wanna be a part of a team and compete against other schools.
Dog: Having a new dog is almost like having a baby. Clearly not as much work, but more work that most people expect. I love him so I try my best to make time for him. I basically try to plan out my day around him so I can watch him grow up.
Someone take me here...
School: Upper division business classes and core marketing classes...
- Business Logistics
- Consumer Behavior
- Business Systems
- Marketing Communications
- Marketing Research
Work: Still working at the Sheraton as usual. Luckily, my manager is understanding about my other priorities so she is going to be more lenient on the amount of hours I work and the days I can't work.
Wrestling: I wasn't so sure at first, but I have decided I want to continue with wrestling. I want to stay athletic, not just going to the gym and being fit. There is a difference. I wanna be a part of a team and compete against other schools.
Dog: Having a new dog is almost like having a baby. Clearly not as much work, but more work that most people expect. I love him so I try my best to make time for him. I basically try to plan out my day around him so I can watch him grow up.
Someone take me here...
Thursday, September 9, 2010
oooOOOOOOhhhhhhh
She reminds me of you a lot. If I had to choose one person out of everyone that I have ever met or hung out with, she would be the one that makes me think of you the most.
She's your height, your build, your booty, and has a nice smile. But aside from the physical... she laughs at the same stuff you do, dances the same way by herself, makes stupid faces in pictures, and she gets sleepy when she is buzzed.
It's not really a good thing or a bad thing I suppose, but the similarities are there and I just find it...coincidental.
She's your height, your build, your booty, and has a nice smile. But aside from the physical... she laughs at the same stuff you do, dances the same way by herself, makes stupid faces in pictures, and she gets sleepy when she is buzzed.
It's not really a good thing or a bad thing I suppose, but the similarities are there and I just find it...coincidental.
Monday, September 6, 2010
This one is for my friend...
It seems as if lately you're experiencing difficulties portraying yourself as the person you really are. This entry was written for you to let you know that I don't think differently of you just because you act a certain way. I'll dance solo with you.
I know we don't hang out that much, nor do I really "know you" know you. But from what I do know, you're perfectly fine the way you are. Keep doing what you're doing.
It seems as if lately you're experiencing difficulties portraying yourself as the person you really are. This entry was written for you to let you know that I don't think differently of you just because you act a certain way. I'll dance solo with you.
I know we don't hang out that much, nor do I really "know you" know you. But from what I do know, you're perfectly fine the way you are. Keep doing what you're doing.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Kazé
So my sister bought me a new puppy for my birthday! He's hella cute. GG for other dogs. I named him Kazé because it means wind in Japanese. Shiba Inu.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Recovery
No doubt, the past two weeks were tough, but it's what happen in the last two weeks that's helped me move on more than anything. Just hanging out with certain people and whatnot has helped me a lot.
I have a new kind of relationship with a friend (1).
Charlie's going away party and just enjoy the moment and the company (2).
Clubbing and beer pong at my house (3).
Everything is in the works.
I have a new kind of relationship with a friend (1).
Charlie's going away party and just enjoy the moment and the company (2).
Clubbing and beer pong at my house (3).
Everything is in the works.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Space Bound.
You have me holding on to you and for whatever reason, it is nearly impossible to release myself from you. I have to constantly remind myself that everything is different than it use to be. The fact that you text me from time to time, or call me randomly makes me wonder how strongly you actually feel about me.
It's a cruel, cruel situation. You've had enough of me for the time being and choose to hide into that little box of yours until you feel something is missing. And when you do notice, you toy with emotions by showing up again.
Congratulations. You single-handedly mind fucked me so hard that it was the worst feeling I've had since I've met you. My favorite gift from you is now in my backyard shattered and broken into a couple hundred pieces. The tree in my backyard scarred with marks of a bat pounding on the trunk over and over and over and over and over and over again. Bat broken in half. People scared when they heard me screaming in my car at the lake. I lost control of my emotions and I couldn't bare to hold it in. I hurt you? Okay fine, let's call it even.
In the small event that you read this P.B., I swear to god you better take care of her. You better live up to her expectations, because even though I would have moved the Earth for her, she chose you.
Eminem - Space Bound
It's a cruel, cruel situation. You've had enough of me for the time being and choose to hide into that little box of yours until you feel something is missing. And when you do notice, you toy with emotions by showing up again.
Congratulations. You single-handedly mind fucked me so hard that it was the worst feeling I've had since I've met you. My favorite gift from you is now in my backyard shattered and broken into a couple hundred pieces. The tree in my backyard scarred with marks of a bat pounding on the trunk over and over and over and over and over and over again. Bat broken in half. People scared when they heard me screaming in my car at the lake. I lost control of my emotions and I couldn't bare to hold it in. I hurt you? Okay fine, let's call it even.
In the small event that you read this P.B., I swear to god you better take care of her. You better live up to her expectations, because even though I would have moved the Earth for her, she chose you.
Eminem - Space Bound
Friday, July 23, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
There are so many things I want to improve on and accomplish in my life, but there is little time. I am at my prime age-wise, but physically and mentally I am not there. I'm having a tough time balancing my life and doing everything that I set out to do.
I wanna travel. I wanna get fairly good at basketball. I wanna learn how to play volleyball. I wanna build the confidence to go up to a girl and ask her for her number. I wanna work. I wanna get an internship. I wanna join a business fraternity. I wanna be a lover. I wanna be a good friend. I wanna be stronger and bigger than I am now. I wanna have the body of a 100m or 200m track runner. I wanna make good money. I wanna make girls' jaws drop. I wanna make new friends. I wanna learn how to cut hair. I wanna bike more often as a hobby. I wanna be able to run a marathon or if not a half marathon. I wanna be interesting. I wanna learn to be fluent in Cantonese. I wanna learn how to cook better than I do now. I wanna be able to sing. I wanna keep all my promises. I wanna be a better brother and son. I wanna be independent and pay for every expense on my own. I wanna learn how to swim. I wanna be a better wrestler/grappler. I wanna be 100% proficient at photoshop. I wanna improve my vocabulary. I wanna be able to take pictures just like the ones from National Geographic. I want to be able to ballroom dance. I wanna do well in school. I wanna own a dog.
Somebody help me.
I wanna travel. I wanna get fairly good at basketball. I wanna learn how to play volleyball. I wanna build the confidence to go up to a girl and ask her for her number. I wanna work. I wanna get an internship. I wanna join a business fraternity. I wanna be a lover. I wanna be a good friend. I wanna be stronger and bigger than I am now. I wanna have the body of a 100m or 200m track runner. I wanna make good money. I wanna make girls' jaws drop. I wanna make new friends. I wanna learn how to cut hair. I wanna bike more often as a hobby. I wanna be able to run a marathon or if not a half marathon. I wanna be interesting. I wanna learn to be fluent in Cantonese. I wanna learn how to cook better than I do now. I wanna be able to sing. I wanna keep all my promises. I wanna be a better brother and son. I wanna be independent and pay for every expense on my own. I wanna learn how to swim. I wanna be a better wrestler/grappler. I wanna be 100% proficient at photoshop. I wanna improve my vocabulary. I wanna be able to take pictures just like the ones from National Geographic. I want to be able to ballroom dance. I wanna do well in school. I wanna own a dog.
Somebody help me.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Keri
I've made up my mind. I've thought about it day in a day out whether Keri Hilson is worth pursuing. And I give up.
Even though The past few days were probably the most depressing, and even though I wish I can spend the holidays with a star like you, it is too time consuming to think of, or even hope for a chance with someone who I don't think cares. I mean, you are Keri HIlson after all and I'm just Kanye.
As hot as you are Keri Hilson, I don't know if it's worth it.
Even though The past few days were probably the most depressing, and even though I wish I can spend the holidays with a star like you, it is too time consuming to think of, or even hope for a chance with someone who I don't think cares. I mean, you are Keri HIlson after all and I'm just Kanye.
As hot as you are Keri Hilson, I don't know if it's worth it.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
--.--
me: you know me and you are on the same boat
her: ohh thats what my ex said
her: he said "the time is not rightght"
her: i cant be with you now"
me: some bullshit
me: it gets me fired up
me: i don't know if you notice, but i always talk to you or bother you because i feel like i have something in common with you.
her: yeah i kinda noticed
me: like we on the same fuckin' ship
her: not boat? but a ship ?
her: HAAHAHAHAH
me: it's a fuckin pirate ship alright?
her: aye aye captain
i cant hear you
aye aye captain
ohh who lives in a pineapple under the sea??
sponge bob square pants!
ahahahahaha
her: ohh thats what my ex said
her: he said "the time is not rightght"
her: i cant be with you now"
me: some bullshit
me: it gets me fired up
me: i don't know if you notice, but i always talk to you or bother you because i feel like i have something in common with you.
her: yeah i kinda noticed
me: like we on the same fuckin' ship
her: not boat? but a ship ?
her: HAAHAHAHAH
me: it's a fuckin pirate ship alright?
her: aye aye captain
i cant hear you
aye aye captain
ohh who lives in a pineapple under the sea??
sponge bob square pants!
ahahahahaha
Why I Love EDC 2010
This is the first rave scene I've been to; surely it won't be my last. The environment I'm surrounded by gives me this phenomenal feeling that my friends and I can't describe. It's euphoria in every sense possible. This description will not do its justice.
Let me tell you why I LOVE my first rave experience.
You get to have bead parties.
This one is for myself.
Welcome to Electric Daisy Carnival 2010
Welcome to Electric Daisy Carnival 2010
First of all, massages felt great, so we did a massage train.
And then we spread the love.
Light shows were mesmerizing.
The music puts you in a trance.
Fireworks are pretty.
And, you meet new people from the bay.
But nothing makes this experience better than close friends.
Let me tell you why I LOVE my first rave experience.
You get to have bead parties.
This one is for myself.
Welcome to Electric Daisy Carnival 2010
Welcome to Electric Daisy Carnival 2010
First of all, massages felt great, so we did a massage train.
And then we spread the love.
Light shows were mesmerizing.
The music puts you in a trance.
Fireworks are pretty.
And, you meet new people from the bay.
But nothing makes this experience better than close friends.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Right now, I'm in Santa Cruz remembering that night I made that one phone call that started EVERYTHING again. It's hard...especially today. It's that time of the year again where I feel this way that I do the same as every year since way back.
I'm here with my best friend and one of my closest roommates and yet I feel so empty. These shots are adding up, but there isn't enough to wipe away these thoughts that enter my head. The memories are still there.
These past 2 days in Davis was a blast. Swooping. Grinding. But when it really comes down to it, it all comes back to today and the year before and the year before. And the summer and the April . And the May. And the grad.
I hope everything is coo with Pas because Pas is better than Sta.
I'm here with my best friend and one of my closest roommates and yet I feel so empty. These shots are adding up, but there isn't enough to wipe away these thoughts that enter my head. The memories are still there.
These past 2 days in Davis was a blast. Swooping. Grinding. But when it really comes down to it, it all comes back to today and the year before and the year before. And the summer and the April . And the May. And the grad.
I hope everything is coo with Pas because Pas is better than Sta.
Friday, June 4, 2010
I like this song.
Ooooh whoaaa heeeeey
oh yeaaaah whoaaa oooh
We had a date I stood you up
you tried to call but i didnt pick up
yeah forgot about our plans
please forgive your man
For ruining your night so many times
I'm sorry I know your mad
and i dont wanna be like every other man
That you've had
So im stopping all these childish things
Girl you mean to much to me
Your love is worth to much to lose
Girl I know I broke your heart
and trusting me is really hard
but watch how quick I change my ways
starting today, today, starting today ooooh
I know that I'm the one to blame
you say every mans the same
but watch how quick I change my ways ooooh
Girl Im starting today
its time to play the kiss and make up game
Now I apologize for the man i became
if I could do it all again I would hurt my best friend
and throw away all my selfish ways
I'm sorry I know your mad
and i don't wanna be like every other man
that you've had
So I'm stopping all these childish things
Girl you mean to much to me
your love is worth to much to lose
Chorus
Girl I know I broke your heart
and trusting me is really hard
but watch how quick i change my ways
starting today, today, starting today oooh
i know that i'm the one to blame
you say every mans the same
but watch how quick i change my ways
starting today, today, starting today ooooh
Girl im starting today
break
Chorus
Girl I know I broke your heart
And trusting me is really hard
But watch how quick I change my ways
Starting today, today, starting today ooooh
I know that I'm the one to blame
You say every mans the same
But watch how quick I change my ways
starting today, today, starting today ooooh
Girl im starting today
oh yeaaaah whoaaa oooh
We had a date I stood you up
you tried to call but i didnt pick up
yeah forgot about our plans
please forgive your man
For ruining your night so many times
I'm sorry I know your mad
and i dont wanna be like every other man
That you've had
So im stopping all these childish things
Girl you mean to much to me
Your love is worth to much to lose
Girl I know I broke your heart
and trusting me is really hard
but watch how quick I change my ways
starting today, today, starting today ooooh
I know that I'm the one to blame
you say every mans the same
but watch how quick I change my ways ooooh
Girl Im starting today
its time to play the kiss and make up game
Now I apologize for the man i became
if I could do it all again I would hurt my best friend
and throw away all my selfish ways
I'm sorry I know your mad
and i don't wanna be like every other man
that you've had
So I'm stopping all these childish things
Girl you mean to much to me
your love is worth to much to lose
Chorus
Girl I know I broke your heart
and trusting me is really hard
but watch how quick i change my ways
starting today, today, starting today oooh
i know that i'm the one to blame
you say every mans the same
but watch how quick i change my ways
starting today, today, starting today ooooh
Girl im starting today
break
Chorus
Girl I know I broke your heart
And trusting me is really hard
But watch how quick I change my ways
Starting today, today, starting today ooooh
I know that I'm the one to blame
You say every mans the same
But watch how quick I change my ways
starting today, today, starting today ooooh
Girl im starting today
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Walmart
When you finally have money, Walmart is seriously a toy store for grown ups. A cheap, cheap toy store that you want to blow your paycheck on. I just got paid again so my roommates and I made a spontaneous trip at 230AM to Walmart to buy unnecessary toys.
On a little envelope we had scribbled a list of things we need/want and things we were gonna check out for future reference: lysol wipes, light, entertainment, milk, table, garbage bags, tank top, juice, slurpee, vacuum. TV, pineapple juice, undies, cup needles, mex-iCAN hot sauce, shoo rak, cowch, red bull.
So off we go. Three grown ass men stuffed in the vomit car for 30 minutes as we make our way down to Gilroy. Three hours messing around in Walmart. 150 dollars worth of goodies. Get home at 530AM. Tired as hell but it felt good.
On a little envelope we had scribbled a list of things we need/want and things we were gonna check out for future reference: lysol wipes, light, entertainment, milk, table, garbage bags, tank top, juice, slurpee, vacuum. TV, pineapple juice, undies, cup needles, mex-iCAN hot sauce, shoo rak, cowch, red bull.
So off we go. Three grown ass men stuffed in the vomit car for 30 minutes as we make our way down to Gilroy. Three hours messing around in Walmart. 150 dollars worth of goodies. Get home at 530AM. Tired as hell but it felt good.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Sheraton
The past three weeks have been way too hectic for me. BIG news!!! I am currently no longer part of the unemployment rate! Suck on that, bad economy. The first week at Sheraton San Jose (Milpitas) was the worst. Training from 7AM-1PM Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and an 8 hour shift from 6:45-3:15 on Friday to top it off! Count the hours. Adding salt to the wound, I have class at 1:30 Monday through Thursday. The lack of sleep got me a case of eye twitching which has been going on for three weeks now. Do you know how annoying that feeling is? I received my first paycheck in two years and shit, it feels AWWWEEsome. $390.04 added to my bank. Twitch on left eye. I don't care anymore. I already decided to treat my friends out to dinner :) at some not so fancy place. Hahaha. Probably just In-n-Out or something since they seem to love it more than life.
I already plan to spoil myself with little goodies and I'm saving up for something big. I just have to figure out what those things are... Back to money management and a lifestyle I want to live.
Just thought this song is fitting for my mood.
I already plan to spoil myself with little goodies and I'm saving up for something big. I just have to figure out what those things are... Back to money management and a lifestyle I want to live.
Just thought this song is fitting for my mood.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Chung's Birthday
This entry should have been done April 12th, the day after Chung's birthday. Looking at all the recent blogs/blog attempts, I noticed a pattern: I always seem to say that I haven't been blogging lately or that I've been on a blogging break. But on to the topic at hand...
Happy birthday Chung! I'm glad you had a great one and that I was there to spend it with you and all the close friends.
The night was full of spilled drinks, busy workers, hot dogs, drunk friends, vodka, vodka, and vodka.
Happy 22nd Chung! That a way to end the night!
Happy birthday Chung! I'm glad you had a great one and that I was there to spend it with you and all the close friends.
The night was full of spilled drinks, busy workers, hot dogs, drunk friends, vodka, vodka, and vodka.
Happy 22nd Chung! That a way to end the night!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
The people living in this house, including me, are getting owned from every possible direction.
Simply put, our rent still has not been paid (due on the 1st with 2 days grace period). We are getting charged a late fee ($175). We will get evicted if we don't pay by tonight. We got a letter in the mail today saying how our water will get shut off on the 2nd of April. Today is the 6th. Worse thing is, we haven't gotten any water bill since we've moved in. Our house is a mess from spring break. There's damage to the house that we'd have to pay for.
On the bright side, the water hasn't turned off yet.
Andrew and John are working/making money on their own so they're struggling. Howard's family has some drama goin' on. I guess the thing to take away from this is that I should, and I do, appreciate my parents and my current situation. I've known this but sometimes it does take someone else's suffering to notice your own blessing.
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That blog was written this morning and there is an update! So we paid the late fee and BARELY made the deadline for rent. Our water did turn off. ETCETCETCETC. Bad news.
Simply put, our rent still has not been paid (due on the 1st with 2 days grace period). We are getting charged a late fee ($175). We will get evicted if we don't pay by tonight. We got a letter in the mail today saying how our water will get shut off on the 2nd of April. Today is the 6th. Worse thing is, we haven't gotten any water bill since we've moved in. Our house is a mess from spring break. There's damage to the house that we'd have to pay for.
On the bright side, the water hasn't turned off yet.
Andrew and John are working/making money on their own so they're struggling. Howard's family has some drama goin' on. I guess the thing to take away from this is that I should, and I do, appreciate my parents and my current situation. I've known this but sometimes it does take someone else's suffering to notice your own blessing.
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That blog was written this morning and there is an update! So we paid the late fee and BARELY made the deadline for rent. Our water did turn off. ETCETCETCETC. Bad news.
Monday, March 29, 2010
I've taken a huge break from blogging because I lack the inspiration to do so. I've realized that I need to get back on track with writing, because doing so helps me organize all the hundreds of little meaningless thoughts in my head. I apologize ahead of time if my thoughts are scattered all over this entry :)
Let's start with a common topic I love to write about: my happiness. Life is never perfect and we have to realize and accept that. It's just a matter of how much you can bend imperfection to make it perfect enough. Regardless, I can say that I am happy. Yes, the sound of laughter and the sight of a smile is not uncommon these days for a guy like me.
On the 20th. I had a party. It was big. It was crackin'. There were hella girls. All my close friends were there. I didn't have as much fun as I should have though. Please don't talk about this party with me anymore. This is possibly one of the only picture I took that night.
On another note, I'm going to hang out with my friend Lisa at her donut shop.
Have a great day.
Let's start with a common topic I love to write about: my happiness. Life is never perfect and we have to realize and accept that. It's just a matter of how much you can bend imperfection to make it perfect enough. Regardless, I can say that I am happy. Yes, the sound of laughter and the sight of a smile is not uncommon these days for a guy like me.
On the 20th. I had a party. It was big. It was crackin'. There were hella girls. All my close friends were there. I didn't have as much fun as I should have though. Please don't talk about this party with me anymore. This is possibly one of the only picture I took that night.
On another note, I'm going to hang out with my friend Lisa at her donut shop.
Have a great day.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
The wrestling season came to an abrupt end with the West Coast Conference (WCC) on Sunday, February 28th. A month prior to the tournament, my right shoulder was still injured with a shoulder impingement which is just a fancy shmancy medical terminology meaning the tendons of your rotator cuff is being compressed causing irritation and pain when moving your arm in certain directions. With that in mind, I neglected to go to half of the practices offered, but lifted weights and built up my cardio instead.
I've been going through some tough times as of late, but this last tournament was the thing that kept me focused and alleviated some of the drama in my life. I'm going to backtrack and talk about WCC.
The day before WCC, I returned home with Andrew W. to Newark to watch the North Coast Section of high school wrestling. All I gotta say is that these wrestlers are better than me. Even more of a reason for me to go right? Watched some good wrestling while trying to take in what I can and learn from them. Drove back to San Jose around nine PM only to find out that I was barely on weight and Andrew was way overweight. To solve this problem, we ran for about 20 minutes and went out to the bars for Sunny's birthday where we sweated our asses off cutting water weight. I went home only to be extremely depressed about Kim. Following that, my friend and I talked on the phone for quite some time and before I realized it, the time was 5:30.
Not your usual night before a tournament... I was dead tired during my matches due to the lack of sleep. My legs were sore and weak because of dancing. However, I can say I ended up placing 2nd. Here is one of my matches caught on camera... notice house I get progressively lazier/slower/sloppy.
I am perfectly content with ending my season with a silver medal. Once I got home it was a nap and then some afterwards.
Congrats to all who placed and/or wrestled well.
I've been going through some tough times as of late, but this last tournament was the thing that kept me focused and alleviated some of the drama in my life. I'm going to backtrack and talk about WCC.
The day before WCC, I returned home with Andrew W. to Newark to watch the North Coast Section of high school wrestling. All I gotta say is that these wrestlers are better than me. Even more of a reason for me to go right? Watched some good wrestling while trying to take in what I can and learn from them. Drove back to San Jose around nine PM only to find out that I was barely on weight and Andrew was way overweight. To solve this problem, we ran for about 20 minutes and went out to the bars for Sunny's birthday where we sweated our asses off cutting water weight. I went home only to be extremely depressed about Kim. Following that, my friend and I talked on the phone for quite some time and before I realized it, the time was 5:30.
Not your usual night before a tournament... I was dead tired during my matches due to the lack of sleep. My legs were sore and weak because of dancing. However, I can say I ended up placing 2nd. Here is one of my matches caught on camera... notice house I get progressively lazier/slower/sloppy.
I am perfectly content with ending my season with a silver medal. Once I got home it was a nap and then some afterwards.
Congrats to all who placed and/or wrestled well.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
No, you guys are not together. Keep that in mind buddy.
Before you go to the end of the Earth for her. Remember.
She means something. A lot. Almost everything. But still.
You are not with her and she is not with you. Right.
Before you get mad. Think. Just a friend. Do not get mad.
She has feelings too. But so do you. Now what.
Do not cross paths like that. Not yet at least. It's coming.
Time will be right. You will feel it. Hope she does.
And that is all you can do. Hope. Wish. Wait and dream.
You are better than that. Believe. Make it that way. Believe.
If it happens. No. When it happens. Try hard. Live happy.
You don't hear me say that if I don't find anyone for Valentine's Day, then I'll choose you. Do you? Didn't think so.
Before you go to the end of the Earth for her. Remember.
She means something. A lot. Almost everything. But still.
You are not with her and she is not with you. Right.
Before you get mad. Think. Just a friend. Do not get mad.
She has feelings too. But so do you. Now what.
Do not cross paths like that. Not yet at least. It's coming.
Time will be right. You will feel it. Hope she does.
And that is all you can do. Hope. Wish. Wait and dream.
You are better than that. Believe. Make it that way. Believe.
If it happens. No. When it happens. Try hard. Live happy.
You don't hear me say that if I don't find anyone for Valentine's Day, then I'll choose you. Do you? Didn't think so.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
It’s been and will continue to be a tremendously hectic week for me. The list of things on my “to do” list piles on and on as I settle into my new house. I am now more in debt than ever owing hundreds of dollars to my housemate Andrew and hundreds more on my credit card.
Ahhhhh. A sigh of relief. It’s totally worth it. I’m finally living in a place I can see myself staying at for a while. I now live in a cozy three bedroom, 1.5 bathroom house complete with a big kitchen, washer/dryer, and close friends. This is by far the cheapest place (price wise) I've lived in so far.
Things are settling down. Friends, family, priorities, girl problems. The dense fog is clearing and I can now see clearer.
Ahhhhh. A sigh of relief. It’s totally worth it. I’m finally living in a place I can see myself staying at for a while. I now live in a cozy three bedroom, 1.5 bathroom house complete with a big kitchen, washer/dryer, and close friends. This is by far the cheapest place (price wise) I've lived in so far.
Things are settling down. Friends, family, priorities, girl problems. The dense fog is clearing and I can now see clearer.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
10 Minutes
In class, we did a 10 minute free write session...
"I reinvented sex. That's a song including major artists such as Usher, Keri Hilson, and Trey Songs. The keyword to that title is reinvent and everytime I think about that song, I feel motivated. It starts with a breakup; a girl I love let me go. I haven't been single for 6 years practically. I jump from one girl to the next, and things ultimately don't work out. But the last girlfriend...this one was special. And when she broke my heart, I had a lot of time to think. I realized that in all these years, I haven't been single making it a little difficult to focus on myself. I'm not saying my goals and ambitions were shoved away and non-existent; I'm just saying I wasn't as dedicated as I should have or would have been. So now it's my time...or "me" time. I'm reinventing myself to the person I would be without the girlfriends and assimilating it with who I am today because of them. Best of both worlds"
Thank you for reading.
"I reinvented sex. That's a song including major artists such as Usher, Keri Hilson, and Trey Songs. The keyword to that title is reinvent and everytime I think about that song, I feel motivated. It starts with a breakup; a girl I love let me go. I haven't been single for 6 years practically. I jump from one girl to the next, and things ultimately don't work out. But the last girlfriend...this one was special. And when she broke my heart, I had a lot of time to think. I realized that in all these years, I haven't been single making it a little difficult to focus on myself. I'm not saying my goals and ambitions were shoved away and non-existent; I'm just saying I wasn't as dedicated as I should have or would have been. So now it's my time...or "me" time. I'm reinventing myself to the person I would be without the girlfriends and assimilating it with who I am today because of them. Best of both worlds"
Thank you for reading.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Japan Blog 2 - The Table.
We woke up the next morning to a big Japanese breakfast. The owners of this Ryoken is super nice and he speaks English relatively well. This day is basically a day of exploring the empty streets at night during daytime. Turns out nearby there is a really big shinto and also a really nice lake where we hung out at for a while.
You might have noticed that in this blog, I have introduced to you the table. One day, the four of us decided to do a freestanding structure where we would lay on each other without falling. Our ultimate goal is to take pictures of our table everywhere we go.
The day is over and the four of us say our goodbye's to Mr. Katsumata. Thanks for being a wonderful host and very hospitable to the four of us.
You might have noticed that in this blog, I have introduced to you the table. One day, the four of us decided to do a freestanding structure where we would lay on each other without falling. Our ultimate goal is to take pictures of our table everywhere we go.
The day is over and the four of us say our goodbye's to Mr. Katsumata. Thanks for being a wonderful host and very hospitable to the four of us.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
I think it's time for me to move on. Thanks for not giving me the fuckin' respect I deserve. All I fuckin' asked for was for you to at least look at me when I talked to you since it would be the last time and all you can do is hide under your blanket. Do what you want, and mad as I am, but remember what I told you before I left.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Japan Blog 1
Upon our arrival to the Narita Airport, I was pretty ecstatic to see where this new experience with some of my closest friends will head. So far the day has been nothing but stress, fatigue, and confusion. We hadn't slept all night attempting to counter the effects of jet lag/time zone change/10 hour flight with sleep deprivation. We all owe Chung a big favor as he drove us all to the airport in the morning. My first taxi ride Japan disposed of all the stress and fatigue replacing them with new-found excitement.as we drove to the Ryoken which is a little hard for me to describe. It's like...a formal hotel for travelers to stay in to experience authentic traditions and culture. Our beds were nothing but layers of firm pillows and mats atop of a unique Japanese style flooring. We plan to spend a night here after exploring the area for some food. The narrow streets hardly allow room for 2 cars to be side by side. What we know as a “sidewalk” is non-existing here in the city of Narita. The air is brisk and makes for perfect weather to sip hot tea—not my favorite weather. I'm not use to walking or taking public transportation because I am indeed a lazy American spoiled with a car and sufficient money for gas. Despite all the negatives, it wasn't too bad compared to what annoyed me most of all. I hated how life was dead here at night. The streets were eerily empty with almost zero sign of life. We ended up eating at a pretty good ramen place and buying beer for kings cup and random drinking games to cap the night.
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